I always wondered, ever since I took that burden, that curse, I wondered what it could be? What my true happiness could even look like. I never found an answer because the one thing I want... It's something I know I can't have. But I think I know... I think I know now. Happiness isn't in the having, it's in just being. It's in just saying it. I know. I know how you see yourself, Dean. You see yourself the same way our enemies see you. You're destructive, and you're angry, and you're broken. You're "daddy's blunt instrument." And you think that hate and anger, that's... That's what drives you, that's who you are. It's not. And everyone who knows you see it. Everything you have ever done, the good and the bad, you have done for love. You raised your little brother for love. You fought for this whole world for love. That is who you are. You're the most caring man on Earth. You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know. (he smiles, crying now) You know, ever since we met, ever since I pulled you out of Hell... Knowing you has changed me. Because you cared, I cared. I cared about you. I cared about Sam, I cared about Jack... I cared about the whole world because of you. (sad laugh as a tear rolls down his cheek) You changed me, Dean. I love you.


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thinking about how castiel knew dean more deeply and intimately than god himself. thinking about how castiel’s love for dean winchester changed god’s story. i am gnawing on drywall castiel remade dean even, but not in his own or god’s image, never. he remade dean in dean’s own image. he kept all the scars and imperfections because that’s what made dean dean.

There is something to be said about the plot line that purgatory is all instinct and pure action of survival without the normal humanity/morals getting in the way and yet all Dean did in purgatory was look for Cas. Like yeah he killed monsters in the process but it was widespread knowledge among the monsters that he was only doing that bc 1. They were hunting HIM of course and 2. He was looking for info about Cas. It’s just wild to me that in a place where it’s basic instinct and survival, Dean’s instinctual survival tactic is find Cas. And because there are no other issues to worry about from the normal outside world (like Sam or the safety of all humanity for example) he can do this without interruption of feeling guilty. Do you get what I’m saying here

the destiel meet cute is so crazy like hiiii i blew up a gas station just trying to talk to uuuu im sorryyyy will u help me pick up the broken glass